Autumn is here

This is a bit of a personal post, just a few things that are going on with me

The main thing is that I broke up with my man after a 4 year serious relationship, he did nothing wrong, and was nothing but wonderful to me, but it wasn't 'going anywhere' so it ended. I guess when I let it sink in i feel a bit frightened, i've gotten used to that 'cozy, safe' feeling and now I'm by myself. But he'll always have a special place in my life he's a really wonderful, amazing guy and deserves the best- i know i'll get jelous when he finds a new woman in about 6 seconds- but deep down i'll be happy because i know he deserves it!

But i'm a big girl- i can handle it, eh? :)

To make matters worse i've been horrifically ill recently,my ear cannals have swollen up meaning i've been deaf, dizzy and its INCREDIBLY painful( like jabbing a needle through my ear into my brain!)

I have sucessfully eaten a whole jar of nutella single handed with a spoon haha

So one big change i've decided to make is that i'm going to look after myself alot better. I'm going to go to the gym once a week,( wednesdays to be precise) aswell as trying to keep my skin looking good and eating well. taking some style tips from AGEHA, if you dont feel beautiful you cant poosibly motivate yourself to keep looking beautiful- so try to keep your room tidy, and even your pjamas and lazy wear should be beautiful!

I just started my fashion course, which I'm actually enjoying and want to try my best! I'm thinking if all goes well to open up an online store selling some gal-style clothing ( IN WESTERN SIZES. my curves dont fit into azn sizes! haha)

anyway, more on that another time.

I'm going to sleep now xx

Soy x